Monday, 26 May 2014
*I cried while writing this*
Sunday, 18 May 2014
Monday, 5 May 2014
One year ago, I was on my way to my third treatment stay. One year ago, I was unhappy and sick. One year ago, I was on home and hospital. One year ago, I was pulled out of a show. One year ago, I was lost. One year ago, I was drowning. One year ago, I hated my life and myself. One year ago is not today. Today is not one year ago. Today I only talk of treatment as a memory. Today I am happy and healthy. Today I am finishing my senior year of high school and have been in school all year. Today I am on a gymnastics team and finished my last shows as a high school student. Today I am finding myself. Today I am not only surviving but thriving. Today I love my life. Today I am ready to go to college in the fall and be free. One year ago, I watched my friends post their prom pictures from my hospital room. I commented on how pretty they looked and they responded that they missed me. This year, I'm going to two proms and have my own pictures to share. This year, my friends don't have to miss me because I'm here. Today, I don't love myself all the time and life isn't butterflies and rainbows. Today, I don't know what I will eat tomorrow. But today that's ok. Today, I know I can get through that. And if I can get through the last year... I can get through anything. Recovery is possible. I know it is. Because otherwise my today would still be my last year. And that means that I probably wouldn't be here. But I am.
Every day is a new chance. Don't let your yesterday define your tomorrow.